C
If I could rewind time like a tape
Em Am
Inside a boombox, one day for every pill or Percocet that I ate
Cut down on the Valium, I'da heard everything
C
But death is turning so definite—wait!
They got me all hooked up to some machine
G
I love you, being, didn't want you to know I was struggling
Am
Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine
Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
C
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
Em
It's arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they're unplugging me
Am
And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday
C
Baby girl, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
G
But, girls, you can just open 'em
Am
Dad ain't making it home for Christmas
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
C
I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout
Em Am
My vocal cords won't permit me, I scream, but it's not aloud
You put your arm around Mama to calm her, wow
C
I just thought about the aisle, I'll never get to walk us down
Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
G Am
It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?
I've got so much more to do
C
And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down, but this tore me in two
The thought of no more me and you
Em Am
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
C
So many things—time, I'd give anything to rewind it
G
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
Am
By pictures all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause
That image burned in my brain of you on that table
C
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you
God, why did you take him?
Em
I´m tryna keep his legacy alive, but I´m dying, where's Nathan?
Am
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
C
I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory
G
And I know you'll never forget me
Just don't get sad when remembering
Am
And, little bro, keep making me proud
You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
C
And when you're exchanging those sacred vows
Em
Just know that if I could be there, I would
And should you ever see parenthood, I know you'll be good at it
Am
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
I actually learned a lot from you
C
You taught me what not to do
And, Mom, wish I'd have had the chance
G Am
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
C
And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
Em
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
Am
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
Girls, please don't get upset
C
I see them cheeks soaking and wet, so forcibly, don't wanna let
G
Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
Am
With every second, each closer to death
But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow
Then a breath, machines go (*beep beep beep*)
C
Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit
Em
I'm tryna rewind time like a tape
Am
Find an escape, make a beeline, try and awake
From this dream, I need to re-find my inner strength
C
To remind me, even if a steep climb I must take
To rewrite a mistake, I'm rewinding the tape